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Letter to Vedika
Posted on Aug 5th, 2005
by 
Jahrun
Jahrun
Friday, August 05, 2005
Vedika ~
Four moons have passed since we had our impromptu farewell breakfast at the Issaquah Diner and subsequent jaunt to Capitol Hill. This season has been rich with experience and I am writing to tell you that I think of you often with that richness. You are a family secret jewel of inspiration in my heart; a sage yet a goof, dramatic and sensitive, inspiringly shifting your satisfaction as the present slips to the past while your star shine zeal reaches into the mysterious future; perhaps an explorer in defying time's sequential nature altogether; a mentor of mine and fellow wizard; and so you will recognize that this correspondence reaches you precisely at the time it was meant.
I read Maitri's "The Spiritual Dimension of the Enneagram", some parts two and three times, yet, it is still not exhausted. Beginning to understand the Inner Triangle, the three primary ego estuary inlets for loss of self, was revelation. Thank you. I am swamped with books now, and have been reeling a bit with effective time management and trying to master my schedule instead of being a slave to it. I subscribe to an email quote service http://www.anewlife.org/ from which I recently received "Try rising above opposing desires instead of choosing between them."
Diana and I anticlimactically received official marital separation decree from WA early in May and have been exchanging the girls every other week since, and, shortly before I walked away from my second contract job here, not one to compromise my integrity for diminishing quality of experience. About the same time in May, Nancy and her husband, Richard, found a rural 6.5 property south of Reading that they wanted to purchase. Diana and I offered to lend her the proceeds from our house to allow her the leverage to buy it. The property has 3 structures. My brother, Alex and family live in the old sandstone main house; I live in the new two-story sandstone studio which is a very enchanting space that has a large office and 2-car garage downstairs; and there is a new 3-stable barn. Although she intends to build her own house here, Nancy's plan changes from minute to minute, and I suspect she has been growing manic in wielding the series of rash and risky decisions for ushering-in boatloads of change for everyone.
As for myself, I have been taking yoga three times per week in Wyomissing (weeks I do not have the girls) and helping-out every Wednesday morning at an organic farm in Ephrata, which has been supplying me with an increasingly inconsumable load of produce each week as summer pushes on. It has been interesting for me to consider how my old family network has continued to heal at the same time a new network has so rapidly and healthily expanded in contrast to my 10-year stasis in Washington, which feels now like a long boot camp on life lessons, and although I miss the scenery and fresh air out there, I am happy to be in this good retreat space.
During the second two weeks in June, the girls and I drove west to Denver where we visited with my childhood friend, Kent, and his family. The girls stayed there for a few days while I went on to Sedona for a clearing and processing meditation retreat. I left feeling renewed, closer with "Peanut", and fortified with some of the other fabulous beings I met there. June 20th, on the day arriving back in Denver, the girls and I took the high-speed rail into the city for an appointment with an astrologer that I have been also meaning to see over the last couple years. I can know that you understand from your own experiences what a magical trip it was for me, and the girls too!
My time now spent as an active influence with Helena and Ruby has really made this change worthwhile, and in context of reflecting them in ways that hopefully help them to retain more of their innate selves as they grow increasingly independent. Enclosed are a few photos from our special day with you and August, and a couple extra. I've been teaching Helena how to use my camera, and she has been taking an increasing number, sometimes featuring me. The girls are both "card sharks" and have precociously moved on to games that don't bore them like Hearts and Pinochle ... can you believe it?! They are both so brilliant of mind and spirit, I have every reason to feel that I am on the right path.
Amy has taken-up an apartment of her own in Philadelphia, and we have been seeing each other every week or two. She has set her own course and I feel more and more as her best friend and child, and less and less the lover, from which role I helped to set her free. We lament now our intimate contract coming to an end, but I feel too often like I am drifting and not growing closer. We each helped the other make the move back east, and for that we are grateful.
Your fellow cousin,
~ Dennis
Vedika ~
Four moons have passed since we had our impromptu farewell breakfast at the Issaquah Diner and subsequent jaunt to Capitol Hill. This season has been rich with experience and I am writing to tell you that I think of you often with that richness. You are a family secret jewel of inspiration in my heart; a sage yet a goof, dramatic and sensitive, inspiringly shifting your satisfaction as the present slips to the past while your star shine zeal reaches into the mysterious future; perhaps an explorer in defying time's sequential nature altogether; a mentor of mine and fellow wizard; and so you will recognize that this correspondence reaches you precisely at the time it was meant.
I read Maitri's "The Spiritual Dimension of the Enneagram", some parts two and three times, yet, it is still not exhausted. Beginning to understand the Inner Triangle, the three primary ego estuary inlets for loss of self, was revelation. Thank you. I am swamped with books now, and have been reeling a bit with effective time management and trying to master my schedule instead of being a slave to it. I subscribe to an email quote service http://www.anewlife.org/ from which I recently received "Try rising above opposing desires instead of choosing between them."
Diana and I anticlimactically received official marital separation decree from WA early in May and have been exchanging the girls every other week since, and, shortly before I walked away from my second contract job here, not one to compromise my integrity for diminishing quality of experience. About the same time in May, Nancy and her husband, Richard, found a rural 6.5 property south of Reading that they wanted to purchase. Diana and I offered to lend her the proceeds from our house to allow her the leverage to buy it. The property has 3 structures. My brother, Alex and family live in the old sandstone main house; I live in the new two-story sandstone studio which is a very enchanting space that has a large office and 2-car garage downstairs; and there is a new 3-stable barn. Although she intends to build her own house here, Nancy's plan changes from minute to minute, and I suspect she has been growing manic in wielding the series of rash and risky decisions for ushering-in boatloads of change for everyone.
As for myself, I have been taking yoga three times per week in Wyomissing (weeks I do not have the girls) and helping-out every Wednesday morning at an organic farm in Ephrata, which has been supplying me with an increasingly inconsumable load of produce each week as summer pushes on. It has been interesting for me to consider how my old family network has continued to heal at the same time a new network has so rapidly and healthily expanded in contrast to my 10-year stasis in Washington, which feels now like a long boot camp on life lessons, and although I miss the scenery and fresh air out there, I am happy to be in this good retreat space.
During the second two weeks in June, the girls and I drove west to Denver where we visited with my childhood friend, Kent, and his family. The girls stayed there for a few days while I went on to Sedona for a clearing and processing meditation retreat. I left feeling renewed, closer with "Peanut", and fortified with some of the other fabulous beings I met there. June 20th, on the day arriving back in Denver, the girls and I took the high-speed rail into the city for an appointment with an astrologer that I have been also meaning to see over the last couple years. I can know that you understand from your own experiences what a magical trip it was for me, and the girls too!
My time now spent as an active influence with Helena and Ruby has really made this change worthwhile, and in context of reflecting them in ways that hopefully help them to retain more of their innate selves as they grow increasingly independent. Enclosed are a few photos from our special day with you and August, and a couple extra. I've been teaching Helena how to use my camera, and she has been taking an increasing number, sometimes featuring me. The girls are both "card sharks" and have precociously moved on to games that don't bore them like Hearts and Pinochle ... can you believe it?! They are both so brilliant of mind and spirit, I have every reason to feel that I am on the right path.
Amy has taken-up an apartment of her own in Philadelphia, and we have been seeing each other every week or two. She has set her own course and I feel more and more as her best friend and child, and less and less the lover, from which role I helped to set her free. We lament now our intimate contract coming to an end, but I feel too often like I am drifting and not growing closer. We each helped the other make the move back east, and for that we are grateful.
Your fellow cousin,
~ Dennis
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